I feel for you Parakeet. We moved to Indy in the late 70's and my dad started getting tickets in 77. It was an annual event at our house. At it's peak, we had 20 seats together and people from all over the country at our house for the weekend. Over time it whittled down, and my parents moved to Atlanta, but we kept 10 tickets. In 97 we sold all but two and we tried to go to the race together. You already know how that ended. Later that summer we found out our tickets had finally been upgraded, and in Dec, my dad unexpectedly passed away. I've kept the tickets, but I've never gone back. I've never sat in the upgraded seats. I watch most years, but over 20 years later I still cry when they sing "Back Home Again in Indiana" Good for you for going without your dad. I'm not sure I could.